Blood sugar is 161 mg/dl, fasting.
It is rainy day, foggy and gloomy. I am sleepy. I just woke up. It is already moon. I woke up at 7 am, took my shot, took my meal, and returned to bed. Headache. Also it is back pain. I hardly able to walk, to stand up. I am bending but still, I am able to move. It is good. When it is too bad no one move is possible. Just pain.
A few days ago I started to turn on my bed, it was early morning, and muscles twisted so badly, and for so long. I screamed. At eve before I was not able to walk, pain in back did not let to take any move. My man helped me to get to bed. This was in the eve. I did not turn, was not able to take any turn. This was all night, one position. Then pain in muscles, so severe, I screamed in the dreem before I woke up.
Now pain in back still present, but it is not so severe, and I am able to move.
Headache returned, not so severe as it used to be that vomiting and complete dysfunction. Still, it is pain, severe pain, and looks like I got custom to use it, to adapt to it. I am very weak, no energy, just one wish, return to bed as soon as I woke up. Some days I can sleep almost all day.
My blood sugar going up and up. It is very difficult to deal with. When I take higher dose of insulin, it is low sugar, and it is getting severe. But with normal dose it is going high, still, I do feel it like 'low'. Why this feeling that even high blood sugar I feel like low, I still not able to find out. I do not fight. I take as it is if I collect pounds or lose them, if my sugar getting up or down, if i am sleepy or not able to fall asleep, if there is pain or headache. I try to solve one problem at one time.
If I do have headache and it is getting worse, I take more Excedrin, 2 by 2 as much as it takes to get rid of pain, not absolute but be able to tolerate it.
If I do have blood sugar rising I take higher dose of insulin, but take more shots, divide insulin on lower doses. This is one of my interesting observations. It is all the time suggested that to avoid overeating it is better to take meal in smaller portion but add some between meals. In other words, keep stomach all the time full. It is not possible with insulin. I cannot take higher dose at once, and this is why I have to divide insulin on smaller portion, to take higher dose of insulin. Not any difference then with meal. In small portions we will take higher amount of meal then in one big portion. Who cares. They educate in what they can, no any studies how it is going on in reality.
If I am sleepy, I go to bed, regardless it is day or night. Some days I can sleep all night, and then all day, but some nights I do not sleep at night and not able to get sleep in day time. 25 years I worked clock-around. My biological regime changed.
It is rainy day, foggy and gloomy. I am sleepy. I just woke up. It is already moon. I woke up at 7 am, took my shot, took my meal, and returned to bed. Headache. Also it is back pain. I hardly able to walk, to stand up. I am bending but still, I am able to move. It is good. When it is too bad no one move is possible. Just pain.
A few days ago I started to turn on my bed, it was early morning, and muscles twisted so badly, and for so long. I screamed. At eve before I was not able to walk, pain in back did not let to take any move. My man helped me to get to bed. This was in the eve. I did not turn, was not able to take any turn. This was all night, one position. Then pain in muscles, so severe, I screamed in the dreem before I woke up.
Now pain in back still present, but it is not so severe, and I am able to move.
Headache returned, not so severe as it used to be that vomiting and complete dysfunction. Still, it is pain, severe pain, and looks like I got custom to use it, to adapt to it. I am very weak, no energy, just one wish, return to bed as soon as I woke up. Some days I can sleep almost all day.
My blood sugar going up and up. It is very difficult to deal with. When I take higher dose of insulin, it is low sugar, and it is getting severe. But with normal dose it is going high, still, I do feel it like 'low'. Why this feeling that even high blood sugar I feel like low, I still not able to find out. I do not fight. I take as it is if I collect pounds or lose them, if my sugar getting up or down, if i am sleepy or not able to fall asleep, if there is pain or headache. I try to solve one problem at one time.
If I do have headache and it is getting worse, I take more Excedrin, 2 by 2 as much as it takes to get rid of pain, not absolute but be able to tolerate it.
If I do have blood sugar rising I take higher dose of insulin, but take more shots, divide insulin on lower doses. This is one of my interesting observations. It is all the time suggested that to avoid overeating it is better to take meal in smaller portion but add some between meals. In other words, keep stomach all the time full. It is not possible with insulin. I cannot take higher dose at once, and this is why I have to divide insulin on smaller portion, to take higher dose of insulin. Not any difference then with meal. In small portions we will take higher amount of meal then in one big portion. Who cares. They educate in what they can, no any studies how it is going on in reality.
If I am sleepy, I go to bed, regardless it is day or night. Some days I can sleep all night, and then all day, but some nights I do not sleep at night and not able to get sleep in day time. 25 years I worked clock-around. My biological regime changed.
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