Day-by-Day. August 21, 2017

Rainy day on Limeklin Lake, Adirondack, August 2017.
Today we are home. It is hot in NYC.
110 mg/dl , fasting. I took 147 units of Insulin Lantus Solo Star. Not I take all 300 units in two shots. It is difficult to keep up with more shots. Also, I take meal only two times, so it is just logical to take two shots, right before the meal.
      I do have severe headache. It is usually at night. It is so severe that I even do not wake up, still sleeping. Of cause every one can have a humor, that pain is not so bad if I am able to steel sleeping. Good for them. I afraid, onr day I will stay in this sleep, and would not be able to wake up at all. This is how it works. People think, if we still sleeping then there is no pain, no any danger for us. Good humor. Bad to be subject of it.
      On Saturday we come back from Adirondack, one week vacation. Now the problem I had in the Winter and in Spring returned. It is not on legs, but on hands. What is it? allergy? circulation? or something else. Do not ask doctor. He simple refuse to see me. I do not take surgery as it is option to address to y health problems. I do not take weight loss surgery even my weight is 360 pounds with +. I simple keep going with insulin, and try to hold sugar in blood as close to normal level as I can. It is OK by now. I do have insulin, so I can control level of sugar with daily injections, to add or to decrease dose of insulin in every shot.
 This is how my hand looks like. The yellow liquid drops from tip of fingers. One after another, right now all fingers effected. The problem moving ahead, and now it is spread on the arm, on the body, even inside of me, I can feel it.       My primary and another doctor suggested I take surgery on leg that the problems in the veins. As I see, it does not matter what the problem is, the solution for any problem is surgery, and weight loss surgery is best for doctors. 
     Well, what is good for someone does not mean it is good for me. So, my primary refuses to see me. he canceled my next appointment. He usually do it in the day of appointment or day before. Not he done it in very long advance.
       I try to find solution to my problems as I can. Right now I do returned to wrap my legs, even there is not leak anymore. Also I do wrap my hand as well as I can.  It is not possible to leave hand without wrap. The yellow liquid drop from it all around me.
        This is how my hands looks when it is wrapped. Easy to see, I almost cannot use it. The wrap is homemade from all t-shirts. Yes, it is not sterile. LOL! Where I suppose to take money to buy all supply and medicine I need? I use all what is possible to get, and if it is cheap then it is better. I am American. I do not jhave Medicaid and Medicare how it have most fresh immigrants who never worked in America. They are 'low income' and we are not. We have to pay all medical experiences.

       Before wrap would be placed on hands I wrap every finger with cloth wet by hospital iodine. Every time when I open wrap it looks like that. But it is easy to get rid of wrap, so it works for me.
       Now it is time to take a look at the fingers. Step by step big watered balls strted to decrease in size and with time the wounds started to get dry. Today there is no dripping from the tops of my fingers. They are dry at least. Still I have to keep them wrapped. Very reasonable as I do think.

       Now there is the question, when next area would be opened? On my chest? On my neck?  On my back? Right now the water ball is in the mouth, inside.

      Doctor Rx some sackings. Have no one idea what is it. I did not have the chance to get it. Really, it is so interesting. If doctor Rx some medicine and patient have snake around where this medicine is, how effective this treatment can be? Remember, as diabetic type 2 I have to do work outs. Then more then better. So, one after another I do have Rx to the medicine I cannot buy or I cannot find.  Doctor hate me, I do not follow his order.
       Really it is so simple to ask, do I like doctor? But no one ever asked me, such stupid question. So, before jumping into wagon doctor suggest such as weight loss surgery of surgery on my left leg (really why only left? What about right leg? ) I prefer to wight a little bit longer. So, I canceled appointment with that doctor. Sorry, fish skipped the net.
       Is this good for e? Is this bad for me? I do not know. What I do know, if treatment wrong then there is no reason to expect to have good result.To stay away from wrong treatment is better then to take it. This is my understanding.

via Ravenvoron