Sugar 75 mg/dl. Perfect sugar.
For today I injected 374 units Lantus Solo Star. Now I take only Lantus Solo Star, no Toujeo anymore. Dose of insulin dropped. Right now I cannot take 500 units of insulin. It would be too high dose to inject. I injected 374 units, but I think tomorrow I will need less then this dose. Sugar is already on the road to low numbers, and I do not like to have low sugar. It is stress, and after stress system try to return to the balance, so sugar usually high. Swings from low to high and back to low. It usually takes time to return to the medium.
My legs are wounded. Both of them. It is difficult for me to keep them from getting watered. When I wrap them, there are wounds from wrapping. If I do not wrap, there is wounds because of edema. Pain located deeper inside, somewhere around bones. Pain of wounds which no one can see. They are invisible.
We went to The Met on Saturday. I parked my scooter near restroom, and when I done the house was just opened. People went in. Two old ladies stand next to my scooter, and I could not pass them to take my seat.
"Excuse me,"- I asked a few times. Lady, my goodness, why do I call this bitch 'lady'? pretended she cannot hear me. I cannot stand. Also I just walked pretty long way from bathroom to the spot. My heart jumped over the head. I am 377 pounds. It is visible to every one why heart does not work correctly.
As I just said, no one see my wounds, or tightly wrapped legs, so hard to stand or walk, but every one see 377 pounds, and hate me that I still alive. So ignorant people. It is good to do not have brain. At least one can pretend to be smart.
Finally people went in, and I was able to ride to the another door to park my scooter and enter to the house. I have to go to the Family Circle, it is steps up. With my tightly wrapped legs it was very difficult. Also two legs work differently and every time I have to find leg which would be able to hold my body weight till I move another one to the right position. I am still happy, I can fit into seat. It is tight, but still I can sit in it. So, I took Nitrostat, Symbicort, and full hand of Ricolla. It is how and dry inside of house, so, we all start to cough.
Today it is Monday. Tonight I got another problem. It is my Bi Pop. All night I had nightmare. By morning my man woke me up. Container was almost empty, just for one night. Usually it is half of it for one night. When I took a look at the machine, it was said that mask was good. If so then water go where?
My sleeping machine is Bi Pop. It works in two ways, in and out. When I put it last night it was not in-and-out. The pressure was way too high, and no in - and - out. My Bi Pop operated by some office on distance. So, someone easy to change regime of my machine. It is not first time I feel that regime of my sleep machine changed. Every time it is nightmares. Last time I could not breath at all, like suffocated. Now it was not the case, but still too high pressure did not let me to sleep.
I woke up with severe headache and I needed to take a few Nitrostats.
It is nice I do have C Pop. This is not so sophisticated machine but easy to operate and reliable.
For today I injected 374 units Lantus Solo Star. Now I take only Lantus Solo Star, no Toujeo anymore. Dose of insulin dropped. Right now I cannot take 500 units of insulin. It would be too high dose to inject. I injected 374 units, but I think tomorrow I will need less then this dose. Sugar is already on the road to low numbers, and I do not like to have low sugar. It is stress, and after stress system try to return to the balance, so sugar usually high. Swings from low to high and back to low. It usually takes time to return to the medium.
My legs are wounded. Both of them. It is difficult for me to keep them from getting watered. When I wrap them, there are wounds from wrapping. If I do not wrap, there is wounds because of edema. Pain located deeper inside, somewhere around bones. Pain of wounds which no one can see. They are invisible.
We went to The Met on Saturday. I parked my scooter near restroom, and when I done the house was just opened. People went in. Two old ladies stand next to my scooter, and I could not pass them to take my seat.
"Excuse me,"- I asked a few times. Lady, my goodness, why do I call this bitch 'lady'? pretended she cannot hear me. I cannot stand. Also I just walked pretty long way from bathroom to the spot. My heart jumped over the head. I am 377 pounds. It is visible to every one why heart does not work correctly.
As I just said, no one see my wounds, or tightly wrapped legs, so hard to stand or walk, but every one see 377 pounds, and hate me that I still alive. So ignorant people. It is good to do not have brain. At least one can pretend to be smart.
Finally people went in, and I was able to ride to the another door to park my scooter and enter to the house. I have to go to the Family Circle, it is steps up. With my tightly wrapped legs it was very difficult. Also two legs work differently and every time I have to find leg which would be able to hold my body weight till I move another one to the right position. I am still happy, I can fit into seat. It is tight, but still I can sit in it. So, I took Nitrostat, Symbicort, and full hand of Ricolla. It is how and dry inside of house, so, we all start to cough.
Today it is Monday. Tonight I got another problem. It is my Bi Pop. All night I had nightmare. By morning my man woke me up. Container was almost empty, just for one night. Usually it is half of it for one night. When I took a look at the machine, it was said that mask was good. If so then water go where?
My sleeping machine is Bi Pop. It works in two ways, in and out. When I put it last night it was not in-and-out. The pressure was way too high, and no in - and - out. My Bi Pop operated by some office on distance. So, someone easy to change regime of my machine. It is not first time I feel that regime of my sleep machine changed. Every time it is nightmares. Last time I could not breath at all, like suffocated. Now it was not the case, but still too high pressure did not let me to sleep.
I woke up with severe headache and I needed to take a few Nitrostats.
It is nice I do have C Pop. This is not so sophisticated machine but easy to operate and reliable.
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