Right now it is usual morning. It is sunny day today. I sit behind my deck and color birds. Pretty bore day, I will say.
Night was not so bore. I woke up in the middle of night, chest pain, very deep, very sharp.I did not realize at first that this can be something serious. Pain increased. It spread deeper and deeper. Fear. Comprehensive fear. Now I finally got it. It is heart. I need to take Nitrostat as soon as I can and wake up my man. I need to go to hospital. My man woke up. He gave me Nitrostst, 2 pills, then 2 more, and then 2 more. Pain started to go away. Probably I do not need hospital at all. really, what help I will have there? I already was in different hospitals with this pain, and what? They will give me the same Nitrostat and sent me home. It was once, and another time, and many other times. EKG show healthy heart. There is no strokes in brain, never happened to be. So, what is the reason to wast time?
Pain eased. I tried do not move. It was big mistake, I put off Bi-Pop mask. This ventilation could help a lot. when breathing stopped then machine work and artificial oxygen supply. Not oxygen but simple air. But still, it is good to keep breathing even artificially. I did not realize what I was doing. I was ready to put off all what I could.
I had clinic a few days ago. There was discussion about my weight, of cause, this subject never out of discussion. But no one check up for heart. It was something bad with oxygen. Nurse educated me that I have to breath in special way. So, finally she got result she needed. If cause I never breath in this way. I just thinking. What if at that time EKG was taken? Probably it could safe my life? Visit was just two days ago. I already had problems, and could not even walk to open door. My right arm in pain, from shoulder down to the fingers. I hardly able to put spoon into my mouth.
Well, no one took EKG. I am very fortunate person. All what I can say, God loves me.
Today I read now nurse in hospital saved own life when heart attack happened. Well, it is nurse. She took EKG, sent it to the hospital where med personal on duty day and night, and then took all medicine:
asprin;
plavix;
Nitroglicerin;
IV heparin;
Opiates.
And then prepare thrombolysis. I really have no one idea what is it, never had one. I cannot do IV with heparin. Opiates I do not have in my home. So, I took Nitrosts, Excedrin, and then when pain eased I took all my medicine in double dose.
Now all day long I do color my coloring books.
This is not first time I do have episode like this. There is no help for me. No any treatment. Right now my health is very very unstable. I just wonder, how dose of any medicine determined? All the time I have answer that I do have all medicine I need, in dose I need. But difference between 6mg and 25 mg is pretty big. Also, I asked many times to give me Heparin or Coumadin. I never have this medicine. I am happy, right now Excedrin back to market. My man use to buy it in big quantities. Just in case if this will happen and this medicine will out of the market. How I suppose to live without it? Yesterday he bought another 13 bottles. Just in case that some bottles would be lost on camp, or something else will happen. LOL! He always prefer to have more then less.
Night was not so bore. I woke up in the middle of night, chest pain, very deep, very sharp.I did not realize at first that this can be something serious. Pain increased. It spread deeper and deeper. Fear. Comprehensive fear. Now I finally got it. It is heart. I need to take Nitrostat as soon as I can and wake up my man. I need to go to hospital. My man woke up. He gave me Nitrostst, 2 pills, then 2 more, and then 2 more. Pain started to go away. Probably I do not need hospital at all. really, what help I will have there? I already was in different hospitals with this pain, and what? They will give me the same Nitrostat and sent me home. It was once, and another time, and many other times. EKG show healthy heart. There is no strokes in brain, never happened to be. So, what is the reason to wast time?
Pain eased. I tried do not move. It was big mistake, I put off Bi-Pop mask. This ventilation could help a lot. when breathing stopped then machine work and artificial oxygen supply. Not oxygen but simple air. But still, it is good to keep breathing even artificially. I did not realize what I was doing. I was ready to put off all what I could.
I had clinic a few days ago. There was discussion about my weight, of cause, this subject never out of discussion. But no one check up for heart. It was something bad with oxygen. Nurse educated me that I have to breath in special way. So, finally she got result she needed. If cause I never breath in this way. I just thinking. What if at that time EKG was taken? Probably it could safe my life? Visit was just two days ago. I already had problems, and could not even walk to open door. My right arm in pain, from shoulder down to the fingers. I hardly able to put spoon into my mouth.
Well, no one took EKG. I am very fortunate person. All what I can say, God loves me.
Today I read now nurse in hospital saved own life when heart attack happened. Well, it is nurse. She took EKG, sent it to the hospital where med personal on duty day and night, and then took all medicine:
asprin;
plavix;
Nitroglicerin;
IV heparin;
Opiates.
And then prepare thrombolysis. I really have no one idea what is it, never had one. I cannot do IV with heparin. Opiates I do not have in my home. So, I took Nitrosts, Excedrin, and then when pain eased I took all my medicine in double dose.
Now all day long I do color my coloring books.
This is not first time I do have episode like this. There is no help for me. No any treatment. Right now my health is very very unstable. I just wonder, how dose of any medicine determined? All the time I have answer that I do have all medicine I need, in dose I need. But difference between 6mg and 25 mg is pretty big. Also, I asked many times to give me Heparin or Coumadin. I never have this medicine. I am happy, right now Excedrin back to market. My man use to buy it in big quantities. Just in case if this will happen and this medicine will out of the market. How I suppose to live without it? Yesterday he bought another 13 bottles. Just in case that some bottles would be lost on camp, or something else will happen. LOL! He always prefer to have more then less.
via Ravenvoron
No comments:
Post a Comment