It is time for delivery Insulin. Not that I do not have any insulin, I do have what to inject. But it is time, and I am in biggest stress: Would be insulin delivered on-time or I have to fight for supply? My endocrinologist left office, and now I have to go to another doctor. Would another doctor Rx insulin to me? I am type 2 diabetic, Non Insulin Dependent Diabetic who live on large dose of insulin and according to definition of diabetes type 2 I do not need insulin at all.
How a new doctor can see, am I diabetic at all? My sugar is just very good. With large dose of insulin I no longer have 599 mg/dl sugar in blood. My sugar is nice and smooth. Even I skip full day of insulin injections, I still do not have level of sugar up to 500 mg/dl. All what I need just re-start injections as soon as I can, and there's no high numbers on glucose meter, nether there high A1c sugar in blood test. How new doctor will see that I need this large dose of insulin?
It looks like doctor must trust in me. We all lie. Doctors lie to patients, patients lie to doctors. We simple cannot trust to each other. If supply would not come what I suppose to do? I already pass a few times when insulin supply was broken. This is why dose of insulin is so high right now. Every interruption in insulin supply lead to higher and deeper damage and diabetes development. Every restore in insulin supply lead to longer time in recovery. I am already getting old.
Would I recovery next time? Right now obesity is high. I am almost 400 pounds. Just stop insulin supply, and my kidney and heart finally would give up. It is already high edema. I hardly able to keep my leg functional, hardly able to walk to my bathroom in my apartment. Now I am able to get up in my bed.
I do not have any mean of income. It is all the time that my man must sing some paper and he refuse to do so. He is 68 years old, still working, and it is not low income job. He has medical plan which cover my medical expenses. What I suppose to get if he is not my husband anymore? This was why I lost Medicaid in first place when my man lost his previous job. I must pay $11,000.00 from my income which is $0.00. No mean of income at all. What dirty play is it? We pay by life for that dirt.
How a new doctor can see, am I diabetic at all? My sugar is just very good. With large dose of insulin I no longer have 599 mg/dl sugar in blood. My sugar is nice and smooth. Even I skip full day of insulin injections, I still do not have level of sugar up to 500 mg/dl. All what I need just re-start injections as soon as I can, and there's no high numbers on glucose meter, nether there high A1c sugar in blood test. How new doctor will see that I need this large dose of insulin?
It looks like doctor must trust in me. We all lie. Doctors lie to patients, patients lie to doctors. We simple cannot trust to each other. If supply would not come what I suppose to do? I already pass a few times when insulin supply was broken. This is why dose of insulin is so high right now. Every interruption in insulin supply lead to higher and deeper damage and diabetes development. Every restore in insulin supply lead to longer time in recovery. I am already getting old.
Would I recovery next time? Right now obesity is high. I am almost 400 pounds. Just stop insulin supply, and my kidney and heart finally would give up. It is already high edema. I hardly able to keep my leg functional, hardly able to walk to my bathroom in my apartment. Now I am able to get up in my bed.
I do not have any mean of income. It is all the time that my man must sing some paper and he refuse to do so. He is 68 years old, still working, and it is not low income job. He has medical plan which cover my medical expenses. What I suppose to get if he is not my husband anymore? This was why I lost Medicaid in first place when my man lost his previous job. I must pay $11,000.00 from my income which is $0.00. No mean of income at all. What dirty play is it? We pay by life for that dirt.
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