Looks like I passed another silent stroke. My right arm is in pain. I can move it, but when I try to rise it, it does not go up, and pain strike in upper part of the arm. Also my hand cannot be spread on surface, It still not flat, and fingers do not spread without pain. They are banded. I still able to function, but with move my heart refuse to cooperate and I feel like fainting. I try to sit still for awhile. Also I try to move slower, but still moving and doing some little work. Well I am ESL so my English is really not very good. I try to give description how it looks right now but it is feelings, very difficult to dress in words, and I am very limited in right word choice.
My sugar getting up and up. I increased dose of Lantus Solo Star, thanks to my man work health care company I do have insulin in any dose I need to inject right now. There are no any restrictions in the dose of insulin injection. I do worry about low sugar but looks like right now there are more problem with high numbers and less worry to get them low. Yesterday I took four shots, and still in the morning level of sugar abnormally high. Right now I try to get the pattern how to deal with the problem, still it is out of my hands.
I do not feel that I do have high heart rate. I used to have it in past, but right now with insulin in my treatment regime and medicine I take for heart healing I do not have that high numbers in heart rate. I feel like I am fainting. Chest pain in the center of chest. Very unpleasant I will say. I took all medicine, then I took another set the same medicine plus Nitrostat. Nitrostat helped me many times. Probably I overused it. Still, I am alive and this is what does matter.
It is interesting I am happy I am alive. Not so long time ago I wandered to finish my way on this Earth. It is not that I was ready to commit suicide, I never will do it. I love my family more then anything in my life, even my life. I do not put stain on the honor of my family and next generation to come. I will go on the road as long as God let me go. But on some point I wished this way is over and finally I do have rest, no pain, no abuse, no suffering. Now looks like this is also over and I cherish every hour of my life, every breath I take. I am busy now. I have to reserve my next Summer season. Probably I would not be able to camp anymore. It does not matter. If I would be better then sites will waiting for me, good sites, best which is possible to get, all around the water in Adirondack and Catskills.
I do some quilting to get ready for camping season, and some canning. So, I am really very busy person.
My sugar getting up and up. I increased dose of Lantus Solo Star, thanks to my man work health care company I do have insulin in any dose I need to inject right now. There are no any restrictions in the dose of insulin injection. I do worry about low sugar but looks like right now there are more problem with high numbers and less worry to get them low. Yesterday I took four shots, and still in the morning level of sugar abnormally high. Right now I try to get the pattern how to deal with the problem, still it is out of my hands.
I do not feel that I do have high heart rate. I used to have it in past, but right now with insulin in my treatment regime and medicine I take for heart healing I do not have that high numbers in heart rate. I feel like I am fainting. Chest pain in the center of chest. Very unpleasant I will say. I took all medicine, then I took another set the same medicine plus Nitrostat. Nitrostat helped me many times. Probably I overused it. Still, I am alive and this is what does matter.
It is interesting I am happy I am alive. Not so long time ago I wandered to finish my way on this Earth. It is not that I was ready to commit suicide, I never will do it. I love my family more then anything in my life, even my life. I do not put stain on the honor of my family and next generation to come. I will go on the road as long as God let me go. But on some point I wished this way is over and finally I do have rest, no pain, no abuse, no suffering. Now looks like this is also over and I cherish every hour of my life, every breath I take. I am busy now. I have to reserve my next Summer season. Probably I would not be able to camp anymore. It does not matter. If I would be better then sites will waiting for me, good sites, best which is possible to get, all around the water in Adirondack and Catskills.
I do some quilting to get ready for camping season, and some canning. So, I am really very busy person.
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